the pictures are of Samantha and then samantha and my nephew marty..he LOVES her...


Well i have been in Greenville for about 2 months now..ITS CRAZY!!! It doesn't seem like i have been here that long :-) I am loving Greenville. I am attending a GREAT church which i will name later after i have joined :) i am in membership classes right now and i am learning sooo much! I love living on my own. I love my apartment! I love being a nanny. Samantha is teething and crys alot. It can be challanging sometimes BUT its cool! She is a pretty easy going baby. I will post pics of the apartment later :-)

OK i felt the need to explain my song on here..LOL
ITS ALL FOR THE NIECES!!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Lots of memories go with this nutty song :-)

Moving October 3rd

Well today we went and signed the lease in the apartment!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH i have an apartment!!! SOOOO SCARY!!! Today mom and dad took me and got me some necessities......like kitchen garbage can,broom,mop,coffee maker,toaster,dish wrack....cleaning supplies!!! I can't wait to take them down to greenville and begin setting up the apartment :-)

i am probably moving down the 26th...in the afternoon but hopefully i will make a few trips down before.................with boxes and then make one big move on the 26th............

GREENVILLE HERE I COME!!!!

Ok soo i am movin to Grennville!!! I am going to be a nanny of a 9 week old little girl named samantha!!! I am sooo excited...Gods timing is always right...........I got an awesome apartment its pretty nice for 475 a month EVERYTHING included even cable and wireless!!!

My job is pretty laid back i will be a nanny/housekeeper............like do laundry,sweep and mop,dishes,vaccum ustairs, making beds...things like that :-) nothin that is crazy or unreasonable...especially for what i am making...and these ppl are awesome i love them already!!!! They are so normal and cool even thought there LOADED!!! LOL

I think thats about it i will post more pics later :-)

I JUST THINK I LOOK CUTE...hahahaha

soo cute...she only touched them once

we wore her out!!!

My boys... i love taking them places

NO DIRECTION

WOW its been forever!!!!!
Nothin exciting going on here.
I have had a ton of ups and downs. I still have no job...i had one but the guy i was working for tried to hit on me. SO that one went away!! BLAH

I am looking into cooking school but can't get anyone to call me back and when i call they put me on hold then i get an answering machine. BLAH so...IDK maybe its not meant to be.

I need to go to school for something and cooking school seemed to be "IT" but now i wonder what i should do...I have no leading...i DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.....i have prayed, talked to other ppl.............noone can tell me what i should do.............I just need direction!!!!!!!! But can't find it.................

ummm

Nothin exciting going on in life right now as usual....I have some personal things to work through.............I am really sick and tired of being suckered into things and then not wanting to do them and then when i don't i get fussed at when i tell them i am sorry i changed my mind. I am tired of being looked down on because i don't listen to a certain kind of music.
We ALL have DIFFERENT standards and convictions...why can't you leave me alone on what i feel is right for me.......
BLAH...other than that i think i may get a job soon so we shall see!!!!

THE WEEK OF DOOM

SOOOOOOO this is the week i have been dreading...in 4 days i will be 25
I have no life
no job
no boyfriend
no prospects
no nothin........
so i am not really looking forward to this birthday..............
I thought getting the job at WKJV would be the turning point in my life i needed....I was making enough money to move out, and i was happy and POOF its gone and i still to this day don't really have a clear answer on why.
I have been trying to get a certain job for about 2 months now and i have no luck..i am qualified and i don't have a job and the 2 ppl he has tried to give it to DON'T want it...I DO I DO I DO....SO i find out tonight some other person is doing it AND THEY HAVE A JOB and they stay busy...I DON'T GET IT.....what do i have to do to get a real job....NOW i am not saying the babysitting i do is not a real job BUT its not enough to live off of......
Someone asked me yesterday are you happy...i wanted to cry because honestly when i look at my life i am sooo unhappy i don't even want to get out of bed......if i were to dwell on it i seriously wouldn't get out of bed......there have been days were i don't get out of bed.
Everyone tells me oh read your bible and pray....WHY...everything God has given me he also takes away...job wise....so i mean WHY pray for a job when God will probably just take away the next one i get....I AM SCARED!!!! I am scared that i will be 30 yrs old and have no job, no life, and still living with my parents in the basement...like some retard who can't make it in life....
I JUST WANT HAPPINESS....THAT'S ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OK so this is me at my heaviest.....

this is me after 41lbs....

Well next month i turn 25!!! BLAH i am not looking forward to it...it will be the hardest birthday i will probably go through!!!!

On the other hand i have lost 52 lbs...since i started all this dieting in October!! I was very excited about that!!!!

Life stinks right now...I am very frustrated with things. I can't find a job...I AM SOOO SICK OF NOT HAVING A JOB and i do Babysit TWICE a week...but i only make 60 bucks and that is NOT enough to live on...People ALWAYS say when God closes a door he opens a window..WELL all i see is doors closing and windows being locked...SOOOO i don't know....I suppose there is some insane reason i am not being allowed to find a job.....MAYBE God does not wish me to be happy, maybe God does not wish me to live alone, maybe God does not wish me to find a job i love...I DON'T KNOW but i do know that i am sick of everything......I GIVE UP.......................I DON'T CARE anymore...whatever happens happens!!!!

Nothin goin on

This is my little Emi. P. Boyer and Emma Kate Hefner....they are my girls :-) When i have kids i hope my kids are this cute...LOL


It has been awhile...nothin exciting going on in this life.......


I got a new digital camera for Christmas and because retarded me did not format the disc so now i am just having issues...it loaded half of them...BUT need to load the rest. SOOOOO as soon as i figure all that out...i may have to take it to wal-mart and get the photos put on a disc and so on.....BLAH
For christmas i also got a new Bible and cover OH and my bible is PURPLE!!!!!
a sweater
tshirt
bath and body stuff
2 pictures for my room
a bookmark to match my bible cover
i also got the last movie for the love comes softly series.....
I am pretty sure i got more stuff but can't remember...LOL how sad

My 25th birthday is 2 days away.............AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH
DEFINANTLY NOT READY FOR THIS......

I had an interview for a live in nanny job i am pretty excited about...I should know sometime next week if i got it or not......

THATS ABOUT ALL THATS GOING ON!!!!

2008 in REVIEW

OK sooo alot of things have happened in the last year..

JANUARY - Grandma died January 4th

FEBRUARY - I turned 24..MAN I AM getting old...LOL

MARCH - nothin serious happened i don't think

APRIL - Decided i was moving to Illinois in May

MAY - quit my job at daycare, packed my room, packed my car, flew my bff down to NC, drove from NC to Illinois, and then drove from Illinois to ohio the next day....made a stop in Indiana to see the Parsons and Brad's family....then onto Cleveland to follow the parentals home....we split in WV and i drove myself home the rest of the way. LOST EVERYTHING for awhile...no job, no friend.....STUNK

JUNE -got a new "job" working for a couple in my church, and subbing at the daycare when they needed me, it also brought my almost move to St. Louis with the kimmels being a nanny..they never moved

JULY - My dream job as Office Manager at WKJV radio station...LOVED IT!!! went to cleveland for the 4th of july...fell at the lake and injured my back...LOL

AUGUST - Lot of time at the school helping out when i could, working at my dream job and ashleys suprise 14th birthday party

SEPTEMBER - Share-a-thon is coming..AGGGHHH worked long hours and crazy hours, got fired ecause i was too out going and did not have enouhg southern hospitality. WHATEVER its ok God had a plan for it all.

OCTOBER - did the breast cancer walk with my sister, did some work for my mom, began my weight loss journey, did some job interviews for nanny stuff...had 2 with a 5 month old little boy..did not get that one OBVIOUSLY....Not worried God has a plan...

NOVEMBER - Lost 39lbs so far....one of my good friends got breast cancer and had a masectomy, still no job...hanging out at the church alot with my bff and helping her with her job...LOL.........First Thanksgiving without Grandma :-(..............still no job...NOT WORRIED GOD HAS A PLAN

DECEMBER - CHRISTMAS!!!! got a new digital camera for christmas :-).....one of my friends that i have known since i was 12 got engaged!! So excited for you Jenny and Nick :-)
STILL NO JOB.....WORRIED don't understand...but keep telling myself.....Maybe God has something SOOOOOOO spectacular planned that i can't handle it right now....and will appreciate more now that i have had to wait for it!!!!