Sunday, January 25, 2009

OK so this is me at my heaviest.....
this is me after 41lbs....

Well next month i turn 25!!! BLAH i am not looking forward to it...it will be the hardest birthday i will probably go through!!!!

On the other hand i have lost 52 lbs...since i started all this dieting in October!! I was very excited about that!!!!

Life stinks right now...I am very frustrated with things. I can't find a job...I AM SOOO SICK OF NOT HAVING A JOB and i do Babysit TWICE a week...but i only make 60 bucks and that is NOT enough to live on...People ALWAYS say when God closes a door he opens a window..WELL all i see is doors closing and windows being locked...SOOOO i don't know....I suppose there is some insane reason i am not being allowed to find a job.....MAYBE God does not wish me to be happy, maybe God does not wish me to live alone, maybe God does not wish me to find a job i love...I DON'T KNOW but i do know that i am sick of everything......I GIVE UP.......................I DON'T CARE anymore...whatever happens happens!!!!

Monday, January 12, 2009

Nothin goin on

This is my little Emi. P. Boyer and Emma Kate Hefner....they are my girls :-) When i have kids i hope my kids are this cute...LOL


It has been awhile...nothin exciting going on in this life.......


I got a new digital camera for Christmas and because retarded me did not format the disc so now i am just having issues...it loaded half of them...BUT need to load the rest. SOOOOO as soon as i figure all that out...i may have to take it to wal-mart and get the photos put on a disc and so on.....BLAH
For christmas i also got a new Bible and cover OH and my bible is PURPLE!!!!!
a sweater
tshirt
bath and body stuff
2 pictures for my room
a bookmark to match my bible cover
i also got the last movie for the love comes softly series.....
I am pretty sure i got more stuff but can't remember...LOL how sad

My 25th birthday is 2 days away.............AAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH
DEFINANTLY NOT READY FOR THIS......

I had an interview for a live in nanny job i am pretty excited about...I should know sometime next week if i got it or not......

THATS ABOUT ALL THATS GOING ON!!!!

Thursday, January 1, 2009

2008 in REVIEW

OK sooo alot of things have happened in the last year..

JANUARY - Grandma died January 4th

FEBRUARY - I turned 24..MAN I AM getting old...LOL

MARCH - nothin serious happened i don't think

APRIL - Decided i was moving to Illinois in May

MAY - quit my job at daycare, packed my room, packed my car, flew my bff down to NC, drove from NC to Illinois, and then drove from Illinois to ohio the next day....made a stop in Indiana to see the Parsons and Brad's family....then onto Cleveland to follow the parentals home....we split in WV and i drove myself home the rest of the way. LOST EVERYTHING for awhile...no job, no friend.....STUNK

JUNE -got a new "job" working for a couple in my church, and subbing at the daycare when they needed me, it also brought my almost move to St. Louis with the kimmels being a nanny..they never moved

JULY - My dream job as Office Manager at WKJV radio station...LOVED IT!!! went to cleveland for the 4th of july...fell at the lake and injured my back...LOL

AUGUST - Lot of time at the school helping out when i could, working at my dream job and ashleys suprise 14th birthday party

SEPTEMBER - Share-a-thon is coming..AGGGHHH worked long hours and crazy hours, got fired ecause i was too out going and did not have enouhg southern hospitality. WHATEVER its ok God had a plan for it all.

OCTOBER - did the breast cancer walk with my sister, did some work for my mom, began my weight loss journey, did some job interviews for nanny stuff...had 2 with a 5 month old little boy..did not get that one OBVIOUSLY....Not worried God has a plan...

NOVEMBER - Lost 39lbs so far....one of my good friends got breast cancer and had a masectomy, still no job...hanging out at the church alot with my bff and helping her with her job...LOL.........First Thanksgiving without Grandma :-(..............still no job...NOT WORRIED GOD HAS A PLAN

DECEMBER - CHRISTMAS!!!! got a new digital camera for christmas :-).....one of my friends that i have known since i was 12 got engaged!! So excited for you Jenny and Nick :-)
STILL NO JOB.....WORRIED don't understand...but keep telling myself.....Maybe God has something SOOOOOOO spectacular planned that i can't handle it right now....and will appreciate more now that i have had to wait for it!!!!