Moving October 3rd

Well today we went and signed the lease in the apartment!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH i have an apartment!!! SOOOO SCARY!!! Today mom and dad took me and got me some necessities......like kitchen garbage can,broom,mop,coffee maker,toaster,dish wrack....cleaning supplies!!! I can't wait to take them down to greenville and begin setting up the apartment :-)

i am probably moving down the 26th...in the afternoon but hopefully i will make a few trips down before.................with boxes and then make one big move on the 26th............

GREENVILLE HERE I COME!!!!

Ok soo i am movin to Grennville!!! I am going to be a nanny of a 9 week old little girl named samantha!!! I am sooo excited...Gods timing is always right...........I got an awesome apartment its pretty nice for 475 a month EVERYTHING included even cable and wireless!!!

My job is pretty laid back i will be a nanny/housekeeper............like do laundry,sweep and mop,dishes,vaccum ustairs, making beds...things like that :-) nothin that is crazy or unreasonable...especially for what i am making...and these ppl are awesome i love them already!!!! They are so normal and cool even thought there LOADED!!! LOL

I think thats about it i will post more pics later :-)

I JUST THINK I LOOK CUTE...hahahaha

soo cute...she only touched them once

we wore her out!!!

My boys... i love taking them places

NO DIRECTION

WOW its been forever!!!!!
Nothin exciting going on here.
I have had a ton of ups and downs. I still have no job...i had one but the guy i was working for tried to hit on me. SO that one went away!! BLAH

I am looking into cooking school but can't get anyone to call me back and when i call they put me on hold then i get an answering machine. BLAH so...IDK maybe its not meant to be.

I need to go to school for something and cooking school seemed to be "IT" but now i wonder what i should do...I have no leading...i DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.....i have prayed, talked to other ppl.............noone can tell me what i should do.............I just need direction!!!!!!!! But can't find it.................

ummm

Nothin exciting going on in life right now as usual....I have some personal things to work through.............I am really sick and tired of being suckered into things and then not wanting to do them and then when i don't i get fussed at when i tell them i am sorry i changed my mind. I am tired of being looked down on because i don't listen to a certain kind of music.
We ALL have DIFFERENT standards and convictions...why can't you leave me alone on what i feel is right for me.......
BLAH...other than that i think i may get a job soon so we shall see!!!!

THE WEEK OF DOOM

SOOOOOOO this is the week i have been dreading...in 4 days i will be 25
I have no life
no job
no boyfriend
no prospects
no nothin........
so i am not really looking forward to this birthday..............
I thought getting the job at WKJV would be the turning point in my life i needed....I was making enough money to move out, and i was happy and POOF its gone and i still to this day don't really have a clear answer on why.
I have been trying to get a certain job for about 2 months now and i have no luck..i am qualified and i don't have a job and the 2 ppl he has tried to give it to DON'T want it...I DO I DO I DO....SO i find out tonight some other person is doing it AND THEY HAVE A JOB and they stay busy...I DON'T GET IT.....what do i have to do to get a real job....NOW i am not saying the babysitting i do is not a real job BUT its not enough to live off of......
Someone asked me yesterday are you happy...i wanted to cry because honestly when i look at my life i am sooo unhappy i don't even want to get out of bed......if i were to dwell on it i seriously wouldn't get out of bed......there have been days were i don't get out of bed.
Everyone tells me oh read your bible and pray....WHY...everything God has given me he also takes away...job wise....so i mean WHY pray for a job when God will probably just take away the next one i get....I AM SCARED!!!! I am scared that i will be 30 yrs old and have no job, no life, and still living with my parents in the basement...like some retard who can't make it in life....
I JUST WANT HAPPINESS....THAT'S ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!